Our Lord Jesus is still in the grave. Descended into hell. And we disciples do not know what will happen. It's Saturday and yesterday everything was overwhelmed by pain, betrayal, even God abandoned his son on the hill of the skull. How is it possible? He, who performed so many miracles, could not save himself. Poor and cowardly people passed judgment on him, but he only prayed that God would forgive them, because they did not know what they were doing.

Why didn't he destroy the whole Earth in his anger, why didn't he rebel against his father, why didn't he turn the wheel of history and come down from the cross, like in the last temptation of Jesus. in a human and artistic – albeit slightly heretical – dream. Why didn't he then condemn the living and the dead, but especially his murderers?

How does evil get into the world and why does it stay in it if the Lord is good?

There the disciples sit in the dark and their human scales are exhausted. A picture of a merciless world teeming with prejudice unfolds before their eyes, from which there is no longer any salvation. They don't dare to say it, but they feel cheated and can rattle off what Sándor Reményik wrote in his beautiful poem in Transylvania of our crucified country and before the world burned: "God grant that I may not judge."

So that I can stay in peace, so that I don't rebel, because woe to the rebels. It cannot be that they completely destroyed hope and goodness!

This is how we sit here on this Sabbath, as his disciples. We don't know much about our human relationships. Satan paints a dark future for us: war, killing, disgrace, and we feel that we cannot save ourselves.

We cannot save ourselves from the false prophets who question our own gender and identity, who want to separate us from our traditions, our nation, our creed and ultimately our family. Those who want to release the spirit of hubris from the bottle in the name of the "ideal" of individual (false) freedom. To color the cultures, but in such a way that they all dissolve and there is no longer any lifeline: neither God, nor home, nor family.

We're just watching the President of the United States get arrested!

Goal: that all of us - we disciples - forget Christ. Wherever we turn, we find ourselves face to face with strangers. These can be humans, artificial intelligence, or even aliens. Tech giants act like gods, sending their avatars, "What's on your mind?" the confessional of Facebook, the speed of thought and action has long surpassed anything imaginable, and even dear Attila József, a genius, is tormented by the despair:

"Prayer does not help them, they sit here thinking in the dark."

I recently visited an Arab country during Ramadan. I was struck by how deeply, how openly, and with what simple naturalness they are religious.

In cities bathed in evening light, the muezzin speaks, the waiter puts down the plates and openly bows down to pray, the people, like a big family, flow down the street and bow their knees and heads before their God at any time.

I thought that we Christians also have our rituals: if we go to a church, we should make a cross and kneel down, and if we go into a shrine, just like tourists, we should bow our heads and sprinkle ourselves with holy water. We already learned it in the small catechism. We should take part in our processions and pray openly - declare that we are children of the Lord! Why is it that we suppress the declaration of our Christianity, we don't consider it modern, we are afraid that the pioneers will talk about it, they will make fun of us on Facebook, we will be seen as the standard bearers of modernity, we will be spoiled?

Perhaps it is more difficult to break a people and a community whose faith is strong.

This is also happening with Islam. When we think of them, we get goosebumps, as terrorism, horrors, and migration immediately come to mind, and we think less of the fact that all of this is partly a consequence. An open attack on the so-called Western civilization.

Open Society is an export of democracy, which wants to triumph through fire and water in the hope of a world government. Well, of course: world-wide problems need to be developed, which can only be handled by a power that controls everything, from the cigar-smoky, cognac-scented rooms of Fifth Avenue, of course.

Here is Ukraine, where it was also possible to create a global problem from a regional problem. To crucify two Christian, brotherly peoples, to violate the previous peace agreement, recognizing the autonomy and sovereignty of the peoples, and to prepare for the big drama under the direction of a third-rate actor. Prepare all this well,

constantly inciting rebellion here and in many parts of the world. To break traditions, to build – even virtual – temples of new secular gods.

Samuel P. Huntington's prediction of the clash of civilizations is inevitable. Typically, those social scientists who look at the world from the perspective of the superiority of the West always lead the mainstream - Harari, Fukuyama, etc. In the rarest cases, they star prominent Christian, Buddhist, Hindi or Islamic intellectuals.

So here we, the disciples, sit during Holy Saturday. And we silently blame Jesus, why he didn't do a miracle, why he didn't save himself and us.

But one day later, we know that the resurrected Christ appeared to the apostles - and so to us - and showed himself in the flesh to the disciples. Tamás didn't believe him even then, perhaps he went there to touch the stigmata on behalf of the others. Only then did they prostrate before him.

Jesus notes to Thomas that he sees him, yet does not believe, blessed are those who do not see, yet believe.

Faith and prayer have tremendous power. To believe even if we do not see the Lord with our material senses. To know that only prayer helps us, that is the only way we can get to God and touch Jesus! After all, we are all messengers in the world: we must proclaim the community of love even if we are despised or disadvantaged because of our faith. Unfortunately, many of us are killed.

Yes, to declare with signs that we are the people of Jesus and bear our fate with pride, but with humility, because he has risen and will remain with us every day until the end of the world. Do not be afraid! he left it to us.

Because prayer helps. We get a light heart from him, and it is not the Lord who needs that, but us! We are in eternal need of his mercy and grace. The wisdom of Sándor Reményik may help you understand:

Amen and yes to everything.

A gentle butterfly that sits on the cup of hearts.

Amen. Yes. And it's from evil

Everything on top of that.

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