"I thank Him every single day, because it's really only His grace that I can be here now," said Dina Eliza Nagy in the Felnézek video. God led the girl from the brink of suicide, from the correctional institution and from crimes to a new, pure life.
"My father is a pastor, so since I was born, my siblings and I received a Christian upbringing. As I grew up, I felt this more and more like an imposition, and I started to rebel quite early. At the age of fourteen, I escaped to college, where I went to avoid having to be at home. Things have come into my life there that shouldn't have happened. I was depressed and drinking a lot at the time. Then I got into a relationship, and besides, I came out of these things with the boy, but when that relationship ended, my life went down again.
I had a lot of conflicts with my parents at home, we disagreed on many things. When I was 16 years old, I decided to move away from home, because I only wanted to follow my own head and I only wanted to achieve my goals through fire and water, especially in the field of sports. I got into the company of a woman who at first seemed to have very good intentions, but she got me into such horrible things and did so much damage to my life that I still carry with me every day. He started speaking against my parents, he was against me going home, and he kept saying that my family would never accept me back, and I started to believe him, so I became even more estranged from them.
I committed some pretty serious crimes under the influence of this woman and got into situations that caused a lot of damage and brokenness.
I stole, cheated, lied - specifically, I didn't do anything other than crime at that time.
It got to such a level that I couldn't even get out of it on my own. I was surrounded by the police for months, because apparently these crimes started to get out, and I didn't even dare to go out into the street because I was afraid of what would happen if they found me. Then I went down to the countryside, where I lived my everyday life and felt terrible darkness every single day. Every night I sat alone in the pub, with such a level of pain and emptiness inside me that I thought only alcohol could alleviate it in any way.
During these weeks, every single day I had thoughts of suicide in my head, I just didn't see any other way out. Obviously, because of my Christian upbringing, I didn't dare to throw away my life right away, because I knew it was from God, but the day came when I said that today would be the day when I would end it, because I can't do this anymore. That evening, I had a last thought that I would go to pray one more time, because there was nothing else left. I went to a church where I only asked God to
"Lord, you see that I just can't see a way out, and if you really are and you really want me to stay here, then do something miraculous in my life,
or send someone to get me out of these things, because I can't do it alone anymore". I met someone that night - in a not very ordinary way - with whom I felt such confidence that we had a seven-hour conversation that night, and I told him everything from beginning to end. He said he would help me in any way he could, but one thing he asked me to do was to get out of the things I was involved in, because I am more valuable than that. From then on, I didn't do anything, which until then, and not long after, made me call my parents. The next day dad came for me and I turned myself in to the police. From there I was immediately taken to the correctional institution, where I spent a little more than ten months. I always claimed that I was able to get through this period thanks to the self-discipline I received from sports, but
looking back, I see that God was with me the whole time and didn't leave me alone.
When I was released, I had so many plans and goals! But as soon as I stepped out of the gate, a deep depression came over me, what am I going to do anyway, I don't have a job, I haven't finished school, and I'm just hanging in the air. A few days later, my two brothers told me that they were going to a Christian gathering in Pest, and they called me saying that it would be very good for me to go. At first I said, I'm sorry, but I have nothing to earn there, I'm sure I won't leave. But then, half an hour before their departure, I felt an inner urge to go anyway.
When I entered the room, I saw great happiness on everyone, but I immediately wanted to go home. Besides, I had been around people for a long time and panic came over me. Then a praise was heard, which I heard many times in my childhood. Meanwhile, I felt the unconditional love of Jesus, my tears started to flow.
I felt that He was with me and that He was waiting for me to welcome Him into my heart again and to walk the path that He had planned for me.
because my life couldn't be better, it's perfect. I wanted His will to rule my life and to choose Him over the world. Then, there I converted. Of course, I still had questions and uncertainties, but at the same time I was happy.
A few days after my conversion, I got a job, school was organized, I started going to work out again, and I reconciled with my family. Not long after, I had the opportunity to confess, which I dreaded, I had stomach aches every single day. But after it happened, and I really told everything that I had done in my life, I felt so clear and I had such a peace inside me, as if the bad part of my soul was no longer there. To this day, I have a happiness that I have never experienced before. God didn't let me throw my life away then and saved me. And that's why I thank Him every single day, because it's really only His grace that I'm here now. The fact that He brought me out of the old things is a miracle, because if He didn't do that then I wouldn't be here anymore."
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